twenty-five
it’s sept 24 and i turned 25 today.
typically i would be recording this, but today i feel like reviving this page and continue something that i’ve always loved doing — writing. so welcome back to kwentuhan with pau, but blog version.
i am welcoming 25 with so much love in my heart — from myself and the people i am surrounded with. this year was such a defining part of my life. i’ve learned so much more about myself that i didn’t think was there. and it’s really true when they say that you’re always learning something new about yourself as you grow up. i am extremely grateful for my family and friends who stick by me through and through — every version of pau that they get to witness, i feel the overflowing love they continue to pour to me.
but also, i want to write this for all the versions of me... a great friend had asked me recently “what would pau from sept 24, 2022 say to the pau from today?” instantly i put myself to that version of me last year and my soul said “i am so proud of you!” i know it’s very cliche to say that, but i know the old version of me is smiling and also proud of all the wins and learnings i had the past year. i’m still here and i am happy to be here. with the challenges, heartbreaks, tears, losses, and the many times i put myself out of my comfort zone, i am still here with a grateful heart.
i am looking forward for what God has in store for me in this new year that he has blessed me to share His love and light to people. my existence wouldn’t be this fulfilling without Him. as i enter this new chapter in my life, i am ready and welcoming of the abundance and blessings. i am ready to blossom and take space! ◡̈
bloom, bloom, pau — this is the theme i had for my 25th.
why? i clearly remember writing on my jorunal: BLOOM. i truly believe that in my journal entries that’s when God speaks to me. so it’s just right to celebrate this year by blooming and sharing a space of things i love to do to the people closest to my heart. i always feel like i could relate to how flowers grow — they go through seasons before you see them full bloom. and this takes time. just like the inner work that i continue to do for myself. we go through seasons. one of the things that i always come back to when the season in my life gets challenging is this specific verse from Ecclesiastes. most especially Ecclesiastes 3:11.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
its beautiful to leverage on this promise He has for us and i can attest that yes, He has made everything beautiful in its time. it’s so easy to fall in this hole of impatience and comparison to others, but one thing i learned in 25 years, His time is always perfect. never late or early.
happy birthday, pau. i am excited for our next adventure. ♡
til our next kwentuhan!
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-14
